۰•● Deep in my heart feelings..

Recently to live with a little bit boring..
I feel like sooner or later will become a depression..
do not like this feeling..


my personality..
wat do you think , or I'll give you a feel ?


many people think ..
I have a great woman character ism ..
do you think ?


these days ..
I think the side have had a beloved partner is really happy..
becoz I don't feel lonely..
when I needed him he would appear in front of me..
this may be a tendency to fall in love and happy..
the current situation is not so agree with me ..


love is an unexpected game ..
it is the beginning and end we can not decide ..
if you fall in love with a man so hard ..
it would be better to restore a single state would be better ..
to put it bluntly ..
I think the present situation tired ..


I know that is very unfair to him ..
but I have no other choice ..
I do not want to own so that they have any trouble ..
two of the same age together thinking is not mature enough ..
needless to say..even a long time ..
maybe I'm being too selfish ..
does not take into consideration the feelings of others ..
but I really hope that he can understand me ..
let me go ..
but now I do not know how to tell him opening ..


after graduation ..
feel that they mature a lot ..
the plan for the future are to concentrate on the distance ..
my favorite time to time with my dad brought my plans ..
of course..
he also agree that a lot ..






I like this ferocious father ..
sometimes I really have no way to take him ..
I have recently been talking to him nauseating words ..
sometimes I would find it very funny ..
also intends to join with him went to shoot two people emoticons ..
buy a pair of gold rings ..
between the father and daughter belong to my memories of him ..



although some regard..
I think he dealt with is not good enough ..
but I know he always put my heart the first one ..
his place in my mind is no substitute ..
I really hope that his health is all right ..
I do not want to enter the community before he is not next to me ..
he told me it is a great spirit and strength ..






Daddy

I love you

I know that is very nauseatingbut

I still let you know that I love you very much..

۰•● Professional work..

The end of my spm exam..
finally a sigh of relief..
I hope that my results can be unexpected gains..
I only asked me to pass like a BM and BI..


recently I was desperately looking for a job..
would like to use the idle time to be properly working..
monsters do not want to at home every day..
the number of working..
I have been looking for secretary of the nature of the work..
although there is no experience, but I am willing to learn..


I found a secretary job..the company's scope of work is about car insurance..
my job is to do things that the..
secretary contact the insurance companies and customer service..
it sounds very difficult but it can gradually learn..
I demand a salary in RM1000 + +..
that company also said that after he informed me that identified..
3 months probation period..
not formally become part of the company..
then formally elevated salary may also apply for provident fund..


I personally feel that a good..
but my father do not agree with my idea..
because he said the oil money and my car the cost of three meals..
is simply not cost-effective..
must have a minimum salary of about RM1400 cost-effective..


my god..
I had just graduated out of nothingsalary of RM1000's been..
lucky that a slightlystill want to RM1400 will be too ridiculous point?
because he was opposed..
I do not see him directly face black..
he took it I can not tell me to try to see..
in fact, I know that he worried about being cheated me to go outside..
but if I did not take the first step then how the future life?


my dad makes bleak health problems of the situation..
the doctor does he got liver cancer has been 6 months..
even if surgical treatment is not good ..
all can go with the flow..
in fact, I'm really scared of my dad left me..
how can I do instead?
this is a fact that I have to accept it ..
so I have to do a good job preparing for his sudden departure..
for my own escape route out of the first half to see him let him be assured..
because I knew he was most worried about is that me..
cirrhosis of the liver as long as he's up ..
he will be taken to another world of angel ..

I would like to use my life in exchange for his father's life expectancy..
I really hope that he can see me grow into useful timber..

۰•● How to go the way of the future?

A while back my serious fat..
I will let my emotions get out of control..

how long did my weight reached 60kg of high..
at first..I was 75kg records fattest..
slowly lose weight to 52kg..
successfully slim down..
did not expect to become fat to less serious..

very lucky..
in my weight loss this week..
now keep 56kg..
I hope I can be a little more slender..

I am about to graduate from high school..
hearts accumulated a lot of complicated emotions..
I do not know how to go to the next road..
I'm afraid of taking the wrong path..
I do not want to ruin my future..

I thought to have a plan..
I will do the job only two kinds..
the first one is hotel management..
the second is the Beauty Cosmetics..

I would like to develop my future career in Singapore..
advantage is..
be able to study my English conversation ability and more room for development..
but I would like to temporarily working middle class to Singapore..
to experience work experience..
before going to implement my plans..
but the industrial products of this job..
dad has been is not optimistic..
because he did not think it is were the work of the future..
I want to convince him it is very difficult..
but I will try to tell him my thoughts..
I hope he can support me gives me strength..

with regard to the development of my love..
nothing seems to rise and fall..this month is our 3 months together..
finally but broke my 3 months for each super-romance..
but I think it is cool period..
he told me I always feel that the gradual fall in interest..
I do not know how to describe..
the attitude of fits and starts..
makes me feel the same with and without..

Blessing for me-----my dear friends..