Apr 28, 2010

✖The gap between reality and fantasy

now working environment
be very advanced local
just not very good in tis area of law and order
don't go out at random
very dangerous
recently more and more complex relationship
I rely on him a kind of feeling
would like to keep that
you will accompany me tis has been concerned about me ?
I really hope tat you will always be with me
regardless of any times
do you believe '' 塔罗牌 '' ?
perhaps many people think superstition
but sometimes very difficult to accept people with spiritual
I believe it
but I also believe tat my personal understanding of deep
I'm very confident of the positive
yesterday morning of the one night
he took me to ride
I dunno wat we are into a situation
I don't wan to ask too many
as long as he would like to accompany me
I dunno wat he feels like to me ?
but he suddenly asked me if i was in love with him ?
mind and his memories
I found myself crying for several hours
directly to work after
separated for so long the problem has been opened
should be able to continue to love ?
the two have feelings for people who are not should it ?
but doesn't solve the problem before us
how we can do ?
only select one chance ? wat would u choose ?
I should continue to accompany you by my side
push you away with me ?
how do you wan me to I do ?
you know you is very memorable to me
thanks you for tell me the truth
let me noe the issues I wan to know the answer





Apr 24, 2010

✖The benefits of a diary


Photos of a few years ago
remember tat time and my darling (sze ee) and lanlan go out
I like tis photo very much like a child
innocent and cute
today
I spent a whole afternoon of the time
watching my every 6 years to write diary book
find it very interesting very funny
how could so easily like before a person ?
and then also very east to accept others ?
I think that is absurd
but I love and like are clearly divided
about a feeling
possible only becoz he was very nice to me
possible only becoz he accompanied me every day
maybe simply lonely when I need someone to accompany
probably just becoz I want to forget his past as an object instead
true love on the usefulness
I will never forget him
I'll bring him along in my diary
I think he thought it difficult to sleep
I'll quietly wait
I'll think of his memories as a sudden cry
I have been in only 2 of each individual character of the journal
you guessed who yet ?
NO COMMENT
over the past may also come back again ?
I don't dare to look and with hope
I don't wan spoilers
I also told him directly to the interruption
if he had turned back a single day
I will fight for him
I dunno if him have not been scared
fear thay he would like before
hear me say these words begin to avoid
hope tat will not
mature many will not do such things , Right ?
and most importantly
I'm not entangled you
just tell you in advance
you be prepared
I do not wish to have no luxury
if there is fate
maybe also come together
if there is no fate
maybe tis is a good outcome





























































Apr 23, 2010

✖婴儿时期 de 我

1991年6月13日出生的小宝宝
去游览无名album每一个相册
回味了数不尽的回忆
有感触
想象不到转眼间
我从一个还在学爬的baby变到现在这模样
如果这些照片是给我家人看见
我相信他们一定会比我看了这些照片更有感触
因为我渴望的永远不会再回来了
我很认清这一点
打从我看清楚接受了这事实以后
让我最幸福最温暖的小家庭
已经不再可能回来了
很多人说幸福来自于爱情
有男朋友的疼爱
两个人都愿意为彼此付出
不管遇到什么事情
他们都会牵着手一起面对去解决任何阻碍
稳定的感情
是否能一直保持不变
当你已经爱得无法自拔的时候
对方将要离开你的时候
你是不是真的可以一个人走下去
还是哭得死去活来
有时
不是我不依赖男人
是我害怕当我已经把整颗心放下去的时候
凡事要我退让..不顾我感受的对待
我依赖的男人只有我爸
谁说亲情就不会伤害?
已经伤了啊..但我不会恨..只是不再依赖了
因为我还是很在乎我家人
二十多年的婚姻
说离婚就离婚
长跑爱情又能算上什么呢
我不相信爱情和婚姻
当你要组织一个家庭的时候
你就应该全心全意的为这间家的人幸福放下身段了
字的头上有个屋顶
是要一家人一起去支撑住的
虽然说大人的事情不关小孩子的事
你们能那么洒脱
有没有想过
最痛苦最难过的是无辜的孩子
让她在童年里有了阴影
让她看到自己父母大吵大闹的画面
让她缺少了父母的关心
让她知道夹在爸爸妈妈之间的左右为难
让她从小就什么都要自己独立
让她常因为要陪妈妈又怕另一个不开心而难受
让她想起小时候就会情不自禁的流泪
这个孩子很懂事她从小学四年级
就体会到很多不是10岁小孩应该了解的事情
思想想法都比别人快一步成熟
为了不让家人为她烦恼
她选择压抑自己的情绪..忍耐..退让
就算受委屈她也不说出口
最多只会在房间里哭泣
她明白一句话的道理
怎么说都是一家人..既然是一家人我就要以和为贵
自己难受总好过全部人一起难受好
那一点委屈算什么..值得的..因为我爱他们
感情太丰富?
想太多?
怀念一家人在一起的时候?
我想这一些都有包括在里面
难怪我看了眼泪会一直一直流很多下来
这篇日记
我会用华语来翻写
其实只是想要给我最爱的daddy & mummy知道
我真的很爱 + 很想念你们


以前年代的人真的很好笑
呵呵
以上照片有我的外公外婆和爸爸妈妈还有姐姐
在这里我要大声跟你说
肥姐姐
我很想念你
看到你照片而且还是几十年前的照片
怀念以前每天在家跟你在一起的日子
虽然有时我们很容易吵架不爽
但是我们有心事还是会跟彼此诉苦
那天听见你打电话跟我哭诉你的委屈
我心里也跟着很难受陪你一起哭
当时我真的很想抱住你sayang你
然后跟你说
家人始终都是在你身边支持永远不放弃你的
为了男人真的值得放弃家人吗?
在你受伤跌倒的时候也只有家人会安慰你
别再这样对待所有爱你的人了
他们虽然嘴巴上骂你
其实也是一直过问你的状况的
我一个人孝顺和陪伴是不够的哦
为人父母真难
孩子长大了要出外公干
剩下自己在家日子一天一天过着
如今我出外做工了
姐姐又不在你们身边
谁来陪伴你们呢
其实我并不是没想过你们感受
你们总是以为我出到外面就不会想家了的
你们错了
我每一天也会牵挂着你们两个老人家
如果你们还有在一起的话
至少还有陪伴
却没有在一起
一个人一间家的生活要怎么过
对着镜子承认自己是一个人的吗?
我不做工
只会换来别人的讽刺和嘲笑
我们身边就是那么多这种人
我真的不想也很讨厌被人这样批评自己
如果我是真的什么都不会做不肯吃苦
我没话说
问题是我肯做肯吃得起苦却还要被人踩扁
那种感觉
我不会甘心的
凡事我都会想到你们的感受
我会让你们对我很放心很信任
我不会做些让你们失望的事
我坚持要走出家里的大门
可能因为我的固执个性所以跟你们有些争吵
但真的让我去做我想做的事
好吗?
多走一步
也许会浪费力气
但至少可以培养坚持到底的决心
只会说不会去实际只是借口
要坚持才能踏出第一步
当然
在我坚持的同时下
也许出外工作的时期让你们难受了
但我一定也会带着成绩回来给你们看的
证明我这一走并不是白走的
我很有那个信心
在公司内一定会在短时间内作出成绩
等我
我没有责怪任何人的意思
我只是表达我心里的话出来而已
我还是一样爱你们的




Apr 21, 2010

✖ I'm join to Ido's Cosmeceutical companies


heard of this company ?
in malaysia ,
these moves are well-known companies
branches in all states
(Johor jaya / Tmn nusabestari / Kulai / Segamat / Klang)
I'm about to join the U.S. treatment of medical companies
Started from Friday
time is quickly
temporary period of time in 2 daysto pack suitcase
becoz I work by the company transferred to Johor Jaya
too far away
if you come back home once every week
then the car really is not worth the fuel costs
so I decided to come back two weeks time
if the father would go to JJ visit me
I maybe back Pekan nanas 1 days a month
dun miss me ...
tis is my longest time away from home
I noe my parents very difficult to accept this
I even told my daddy up quarrel
Finally
he was well aware of my stubbornness
he knew tat no matter how opposed I still insist going
I'm not unable to sympathize with the feelings of parents
I also hope I can stay around to accompany them
but if every time I hold tis mentality
so I don't always work without it ?
I should not worry about so many issues
ready to risk everything once brave
I will make the results look to you
wait me...
I believe
I join the circle of the beauty industry after
certainly become more mature
the most important thing is our manners


the period of my innocence will be gone
I don't noe is good or bad thing

it does not matter

performance is all I want

okay la..

to stop here...

have free time I will always come in renew my blog..

my working hours : 10:30 a.m. until 8:00 p.m.

Pray for me ^o^


miss * family * frendz * and someone *

Apr 18, 2010

✖ Part of our definition of 14th



I felt quite helpless


cannot say the feeling


I can't forget memories of the past

whether happy unhappy is not forget



perhaps I would never meet him

maybe I was too naive it

the sad part of our bits and pieces

we have to forget their


why do you promise me something

always impossible

actually you do not love me

don't disturb my life
ur injuries are not small

you can easily forget the course of 2 years

you don't noe how long I'm sad for you





I am very impressed


he personally wrote a love letter for me


not very sophisticated


the simple to the very common


but inside it contains a lot of thought


until now.. 19 april 2010


I still keep this letter





we eloped to Singapore

special celebration with us more than 1 month

since we first got together was over 26 days only

can u see ?

we wore the same jewelry



Past of our memories


I'll never forget


true pictures


I don't wan deceive myself


why do u thing will not move


could hurt me


you don't feel guilt ?



for the first time together


start = 14/02/2008


end = 09/03/2008



the second time



start = 14/12/2008


end = 07/03/2009
















































































Apr 15, 2010

✖ CLUBBING ♥ Cabana


终于等到今天了
Cabana 星期三的 Ladies Day
照片美不美?
走Sexy路线..
虽然身材不是很好啦..
可是我有料.. : X
and then
我们三个ladies说好要打扮美美去
结果还真的全部走性感路线
不错不错
maggie你有进步哦
缺点就是要就敢穿敢露嘛..还穿小外套
huh


嘿嘿嘿
我们三个女的喝了酒叫别人帮我们拍照
wow
这个照片不错美
就是那个人拍到那么蒙看不清楚
KANASAI
Maggie死都不喝酒
我跟诗嘉拿她没办法
结果我+诗嘉+Vincent+Eric自己喝
过后就拉诗嘉去跳舞
wow
High到爆
最差经的就是楼下很热
再来就是在Cabana里面meet jbt的朋友
[流川风] and [fly熊]
erm
我只是认识第一个任务罢了咯
过后他拿一支棒棒糖请我吃
哇哈哈
然后他介绍朋友给我认识咯
过后热到顶不顺
我们就跑去楼上吹风了

本来叫诗嘉陪我去厕所
可是她不要
就叫Maggie陪我去厕所
其实我的目的只是要拍照啦
不过也是有上厕所拉
呵呵
结果就只能和Maggie合拍了
[ 看在你blur了的份上原谅你吧 , 小女人 ]



她还很不给面子不要拍
经过我的哭哭啼啼情况下
她才点头
这家伙跟我一样固执得很
要就是要的
又是那个拍照技术有问题的人
做么会拍到这种颜色蒙蒙又白白的画面
人家开闪光灯了咯

凌晨三点多回到宿舍
哇哈哈
这个家伙已经倒车在客厅了
真的是傻婆
每次去都是这个样子回来
傻大姐的性格
但是她真的很疼我很关心我
我们认识不到一个月
感情却很要好了


这个家伙更厉害
很自豪的姿态给Eric 拍照
因为她没有喝酒所以没有醉
回家时候
还在Cabana外面打包chicken wing回家吃
真的是给她炸扁
下次不好再给我们有机会去哦
不然肯定灌倒你
哈哈哈

Eric 一面摇头一面取笑我们
说我们都是sama sama的
喂喂
我还清醒的ok
醉的话我就不会对着镜头比手势了咯
哈哈哈
就这样结束了我们的Clubbing
本来可以看到我的初恋情人的
呵呵
我印象很深刻
因为我等了他四年的时间才放下
2004年到现在
不过我们还是很好的朋友哦
很难得分手后还可以做好朋友吧?
但是他对我始终像对妹妹一样
其实这样也好
他sms给我
我在跳舞没拿电话
等到我回他sms的时候
变成他没看到电话
我走出门口打电话给他
他才说他在Cabana楼下
等他走出来门口
我已经上车要回家了
所以说是不是我跟他没有缘分呢?
他女朋友也在旁边
没看到也好
怕等下我喝酒乱讲话 =.=''
再来就是...
今天我面对到两个我爱过的男生
一个上面已经说掉了
另外一个就是...
我以前最爱的人也是伤我最深的人
第一次在这个人身上跌倒是你傻
第二次在这个人身上跌倒是你蠢
第三次在这个人身上跌倒是活该
凌晨 5 : 13 a.m
我正式的面对这个人
我以为对他的爱
可能会因为眼对眼而找回感觉
不过很庆幸
再次面对他
我知道我现在对他的感觉是怎样了
不爱了
在一起>>分手>>暧昧>>第二次复合>>最后还是分手
曾经为了他我哭了整整1-2年
知道他不是一个好情人
我还是选择跟他在一起
现在呢
面对他我就会告诉我自己
不会再那么笨给你伤多一次了
所以我很确定跟他没有以后
熟悉的地方
熟悉的路线
熟悉的画面
熟悉的问题
熟悉的门口
熟悉的场景
这一切让我觉得又熟悉又陌生
让我想起好像回到了过去
以前和他在一起的时候
那不是爱
只是过去回忆的感触吧?
刚巧当天也是14号



















置中

Apr 13, 2010

✖ not enough sleep and simple day


Cannot sleep all night

strange situation

every time

I'm going to English classes the day before

always spinning can't sleep

exhausted


8:00 a.m.

I read the newspaper after a bath

choose to wear clothes today

and then to the kitchen brewing a cup of coffee

usually I don't drink coffee

but in order to bring the spirit of driving

out the door I would enjoy a cup of hot coffee



9:30 a.m.

my dad told me to eat breakfast

hhe asked me to eat chicken rice or laksa ?

erm..

I wan to eat '' Bak Kut Tay ''

then he took me to eat

long time no go out with him ady



today

I 'm starting early go to english classes

sun is very strong and very hot

let the sweat on my forehead has been flow

the entire face is oily

so I feel very greatest fire

and

traffic congestion

take this time to take a pictures

is very cool

wahaha : x

I like my hair color



after school

drive to Bukit Indah Jusco

and find my babe maggie yam cha

I didn't go to crystal shop a long time

know a new friend

his name is ah keong

he has added me as a friend in Facebook

but I never seen him

finally see the true face of today

wahaha : )



I have nothing particular highlight

very simple

very casual



tomorrow will be a wonderful days

becoz I want to start my night life on wednesday

who people hv going to Cabana can meet me



hahaha : p



I LOVE CLUBBING VERY MUCH

Apr 10, 2010

✖ with mom n frenz go on a dating

Gentle lady style
this style is right for me

Theme : shopping

Location : Cs

Date : 9 th april 2010

Time : 12:00p.m. until 5:30 p.m.

Character : kelly, mummy, li fong, wen yan

this is my first time and my mom and friends to go out
also had a good time
of coz
my mom also take pictures with us together
so nice la !!!
8 sisters but only three sisters dating
few people does not mean no atmosphere
we also playa very crazy
this is our common ground
we didn't take pictures for a long time
like before graduation
and compared with previous
we really grew up
19 years old

next appearances
more wonderful
that is my mom and me

we look like it ?

mummy and kelly


our comments is...

we shot both the united states
mummy is too similar to the rich
I look similar to the rich princess
wahahaha
view of pure only :X


mummy bought a skirt for me
I choose sexy styles
leopard print low cut dress
becoz next week I'm going clubbing
I will upload the clubbing pictures
wait and see



I like these photo
so nice...
cherish our friendship
although far from pulling us
I hope the friendship will always be in my heart
** love best friends **































Apr 6, 2010

✖ Bad in the past, good to be there..



whether all the unhappy things have passed ?

suffering is being put down

I should be able to do that
to camouflage it 。
in this house


everyone is deliberately disguised hypocrisy

I am having the same ?
people living under the eaves
appearance appears to be a wonderful family
the real side too ?
if the warm words
only deceive themselves

life can be repeated several times ?

daddy is only one
even if he can't really understand me
can't ignore him forever
is right ?
I always swallow every time
why my father is not agree with me ?
diploma important
experience more important

if you read many books don't have any experiece

everything is equal to blank
forget it


I still miss the boy
I thought he had forgotten me
I feel sad heart
during this period
we no longer keep in touch as before
more and more distant relations
I knoe tat no one can guarantee the same heart
makes me happy is that
it turned out he did not forget me
yesterdays he went to temple to pray
he also helped me to pray a peaceful charm of wealth
happy
21 June 2010
he'll be back in malaysia
looking forward to the coming of the day






miss*