۰•● Deep in my heart feelings..

Recently to live with a little bit boring..
I feel like sooner or later will become a depression..
do not like this feeling..


my personality..
wat do you think , or I'll give you a feel ?


many people think ..
I have a great woman character ism ..
do you think ?


these days ..
I think the side have had a beloved partner is really happy..
becoz I don't feel lonely..
when I needed him he would appear in front of me..
this may be a tendency to fall in love and happy..
the current situation is not so agree with me ..


love is an unexpected game ..
it is the beginning and end we can not decide ..
if you fall in love with a man so hard ..
it would be better to restore a single state would be better ..
to put it bluntly ..
I think the present situation tired ..


I know that is very unfair to him ..
but I have no other choice ..
I do not want to own so that they have any trouble ..
two of the same age together thinking is not mature enough ..
needless to say..even a long time ..
maybe I'm being too selfish ..
does not take into consideration the feelings of others ..
but I really hope that he can understand me ..
let me go ..
but now I do not know how to tell him opening ..


after graduation ..
feel that they mature a lot ..
the plan for the future are to concentrate on the distance ..
my favorite time to time with my dad brought my plans ..
of course..
he also agree that a lot ..






I like this ferocious father ..
sometimes I really have no way to take him ..
I have recently been talking to him nauseating words ..
sometimes I would find it very funny ..
also intends to join with him went to shoot two people emoticons ..
buy a pair of gold rings ..
between the father and daughter belong to my memories of him ..



although some regard..
I think he dealt with is not good enough ..
but I know he always put my heart the first one ..
his place in my mind is no substitute ..
I really hope that his health is all right ..
I do not want to enter the community before he is not next to me ..
he told me it is a great spirit and strength ..






Daddy

I love you

I know that is very nauseatingbut

I still let you know that I love you very much..

۰•● Professional work..

The end of my spm exam..
finally a sigh of relief..
I hope that my results can be unexpected gains..
I only asked me to pass like a BM and BI..


recently I was desperately looking for a job..
would like to use the idle time to be properly working..
monsters do not want to at home every day..
the number of working..
I have been looking for secretary of the nature of the work..
although there is no experience, but I am willing to learn..


I found a secretary job..the company's scope of work is about car insurance..
my job is to do things that the..
secretary contact the insurance companies and customer service..
it sounds very difficult but it can gradually learn..
I demand a salary in RM1000 + +..
that company also said that after he informed me that identified..
3 months probation period..
not formally become part of the company..
then formally elevated salary may also apply for provident fund..


I personally feel that a good..
but my father do not agree with my idea..
because he said the oil money and my car the cost of three meals..
is simply not cost-effective..
must have a minimum salary of about RM1400 cost-effective..


my god..
I had just graduated out of nothingsalary of RM1000's been..
lucky that a slightlystill want to RM1400 will be too ridiculous point?
because he was opposed..
I do not see him directly face black..
he took it I can not tell me to try to see..
in fact, I know that he worried about being cheated me to go outside..
but if I did not take the first step then how the future life?


my dad makes bleak health problems of the situation..
the doctor does he got liver cancer has been 6 months..
even if surgical treatment is not good ..
all can go with the flow..
in fact, I'm really scared of my dad left me..
how can I do instead?
this is a fact that I have to accept it ..
so I have to do a good job preparing for his sudden departure..
for my own escape route out of the first half to see him let him be assured..
because I knew he was most worried about is that me..
cirrhosis of the liver as long as he's up ..
he will be taken to another world of angel ..

I would like to use my life in exchange for his father's life expectancy..
I really hope that he can see me grow into useful timber..

۰•● How to go the way of the future?

A while back my serious fat..
I will let my emotions get out of control..

how long did my weight reached 60kg of high..
at first..I was 75kg records fattest..
slowly lose weight to 52kg..
successfully slim down..
did not expect to become fat to less serious..

very lucky..
in my weight loss this week..
now keep 56kg..
I hope I can be a little more slender..

I am about to graduate from high school..
hearts accumulated a lot of complicated emotions..
I do not know how to go to the next road..
I'm afraid of taking the wrong path..
I do not want to ruin my future..

I thought to have a plan..
I will do the job only two kinds..
the first one is hotel management..
the second is the Beauty Cosmetics..

I would like to develop my future career in Singapore..
advantage is..
be able to study my English conversation ability and more room for development..
but I would like to temporarily working middle class to Singapore..
to experience work experience..
before going to implement my plans..
but the industrial products of this job..
dad has been is not optimistic..
because he did not think it is were the work of the future..
I want to convince him it is very difficult..
but I will try to tell him my thoughts..
I hope he can support me gives me strength..

with regard to the development of my love..
nothing seems to rise and fall..this month is our 3 months together..
finally but broke my 3 months for each super-romance..
but I think it is cool period..
he told me I always feel that the gradual fall in interest..
I do not know how to describe..
the attitude of fits and starts..
makes me feel the same with and without..

Blessing for me-----my dear friends..

۰•● SPM coming...

Now we are in a very important test realm..
but I see it..
everyone seems to not be nervous SPM results..
read so many years..
in order that this time of the examination..
why is it that everyone has drawn a blank?
I do not accept such an approach..

the above photo is what..
we shoot the day before the examination..
of our good friends in school class..
however, there are still a lot of people to escape the lens..
this is our first time in school photo..
graduation photo..

the first day is about to test BM paper 1 & 2..

that night..
I study the afternoon novel to go to sleep until about 4:00 a.m..
less than three hours sleep got up..
in order to dictation novel is no way..

even on his way to school..
I am waving a book while walking to see..
exam started..
I have read so many articles out of the article makes no..

Fortunately,
I have to parents how to cultivate a successful children read an article..
my BM paper 1 essay of up to 842 words..
my BM paper 2 of the subject was mamahuhu only..
can only rely on my Rumusan get high marks in..
hope that there will be a miracle to happen..

the next day about the exam in BI paper 1 & 2..
me the most nervous one subject..
I read the novel The Pearl to sleep around 11 p.m..
because the spirit of the lack..
set the alarm before going to bed 4.30 am up study..
my boyboy

said I was crazy..
has been at the school can not even eat a meal..

during the examination of the half-hour..
I found that the other candidates are in bed..
is simply not believe it..
why did they not try to write to see?
is not nervous?

this 2-day test..
let me tired mental fatigue and stress greatly..
finally did not took the test this week..
have to wait until next monday before tuesday mathematics test..
I think I have this subject there is no hope..
because I am a Mathematics idiot..

Now I can finally relieved..

TIRED....

۰•● Simple is the well-being

Days from the spm are 9 days..

I have gradually emerged in the pressure..

I do not like my grades are not satisfactory..

I will regret it for life..

unknowingly..

I became my classes (model students) ..

I am weird..

why do I become a model class living?

teacher expectations are high for me..

but I was in the second half of this period, teachers are disappointed..

because I have been did not go to school..

world..

there is really thinking of the idea so simple as simple as people?

I do not believe I was this type of person..


but my idea is really very simple..

happy to see someone else..

my heart will be happy to follow up..

can help others makes me feel happy..

my request is not much..

but to a lot of people think I am silly stupid..

Really so?

My lovely boy two weeks straight working specially to my place..

waiting for me after work..

do you know what that kind of feeling do?

very warm..

always on my most tired when he would appear in front of me..

me no substitute for love..

help me massage..

let me less shoulder pain..



every day we live in two individuals in the world..

single-minded only want each other's companionship..

neglect their friends..

the most important thing is..

these friends worth it?

are worth..

but most people are two-sided..

so I told them no longer taken seriously..


perhaps each stage has a different friend..

۰•● unexpected

A busy Saturday and Sunday..
I took copies of part-time at a certain shopping inside..
lack of sleep..

Dad said that I do not need myself own tired..
is not short of money at home..
but I think this is an additional revenue..
well, I have more money to be spent in..

hehe..

unfortunately, wages have to wait until 2 months before..
really tired out ..
I look forward to..

Sunday the day..
my boy gave me a great surprise..
people may think that is a common thing..
but for me..
is indeed a very unexpected appearance..

He is a pleasant surprise of the boys never give me..
may be because the relationship between the bar has never talked about love..
I was his first official contacts between the girls..
he did not give me any surprises and romance..
he gave me only three meals a day will not be hungry to only..
he could not understand what I want..
this is why I, and his reasons for breaking up..
but now be considered and good..
only that we did not open to the friends know..

I went off work time is 9:00 p.m..
he has been with me from morning to night are linked..
by about 8 pm more..
he said the evening would give me a pleasant surprise..
I am curious to ask him non-stop..
he told me that he bought in a shop dolls..
called the clerk sent to me..
I am not a three-year..
and he is a person does not know how to give surprises..
of course, do not believe..

the moment I call it a day..
throughout the store, he cannot find me..
no way to have only hit the phone told me the truth..
I can not believe he's really come to me themselves sutera mall..
afterwards..

I met with him meet at the KFC..
I have been to see him do not stop laughing..

he used his big hands holding my little hands to walk around..
I feel very happy..
ever since the separation of a few days later..
he has indeed changed a lot..
let's go inside the market to buy goods..
his hand holding my hand, another hand to help me raise the basket..
we would like to buy our goods..
after tat..we would drive home..

feel very tired today..
but it is a good day..
my pig really made me feel very happy..
because he is stupid..
but to my surprise..
he himself came to find me..
I feel very unexpected..


Big Fool..I love it..

۰•●When you are not next to me..

The past few days have been very lonely..

accustomed to his daily companionship..

sudden loss of feeling good strange..

Time is very slow too..

very different feel and usual..

Thinking..

In the end we are separate is right or wrong..

but I can not accept..

he told me to change the attitude..

when I need him..

he did not at my side..

It makes me feel good-hearted gray..

He made me feel tired heart..

I really know what to do..

I still think he..

Since last sunday I told him after the opening..

we have never seen each other..

Although he has openings to retain..

but I refused..

not my heart have no him..

but I want to calm..

does this decision will enable us to reflect on each other do their own fault ?

I know that we together are not favored by others..

discrimination because of someone else..

I have never been willing to bow to admit that we are not suitable..

now separate..

I do not know is because we do not fit or for other reasons..

but I know we still have each other's heart there..

we are still the same as before..

daily contact with each other..

not only did not go out to meet..

there are relatively few close call only..

I do not know if you are willing to care I do not ..

things will always be solved one day..

Let it go..