♠ Countdown time to work

I said

Can I like a naive child ？

Carefree time is always too soon,

I have to fight back to Singapore to work.



Tough day.

♠ Unknown feelings

In the emotional world,

I don't expect a vigorous love,I just to ordinary, stable, simple happiness.


Although the occasional free,
makes me think of you,but I longer no blame you ady.

Sometimes the release is kind of a relief.

many things have passed is passed.
time will enable us to make the wrong people to forget.


We will encounter a person worthy of love again.

feelings * 慧琳 09:20p.m.

♠ 一波平息，一波又起，要到什么时候？

最近心情非常糟
总是有些烦不完的事
不能彻底解决

什么时候我才可以见人
什么时候才可以跟姐妹喝茶
什么时候我可以再次打扮出去

我发现什么都不可以
是吗

感觉接下来的日子
我会忙到没时间休息
平时做工就算了
现在就连休息都要去上课
天呀
干嘛这样捏？
我自己选择的就不要怪别人吧
发牢骚几句
总可以吧

手心是肉
手背是肉

手指都会有长短的
我自认我已经做到很好了
可是你们还是让我左右为难
我没本事理会那么多
因为我知道就算我做到多好
你们还是嫌不够
随你们吧

总是把为我着想挂在嘴边
是没有用的
不要只是用嘴巴说说而已

我就是不喜欢
不管我回到哪一间家
你们都会念对方的不是给我听
我回家是为了陪你们和休息
不是回来听你们无理取闹的
如果是这样
我不要回来更好是吗

你们埋怨
我没时间陪你们
我大部分的时间放在工作上
休息时间放在上课那里
接下来就是跑两边家
真的那么不知足吗？
那么我的朋友算什么
我更少机会看到她们是吗
久久出去一次也要骂
难道我的时间
注定为你们俩老就行了？
给我点私人时间休息可以吗
我真的很累
感觉在跟时间赛跑

一件事情解决了
一件事情又发生

为什么就是不能让我心情平静下来点？
反而让我心情每天都Pekcek
很无奈 是吗

我说
最近脾气是有够不好
动不动就来发脾气 整身火
不会看人家脸色是吗
我不爽 就让我静静就好
不要跟我讲那么多

呼~~~~

真的是~~~~~

这种鸟日子赶快结束吧！！

♠ 父亲节 (不快乐)

每一年的父亲节
我都会整天陪着爸爸渡过
我以为每一年都会这样
没想到今年例外

有多久
我没跟爸爸发生过争执了？
一直想尽办法努力让你对我放心
我却没想到做了那么多 忍了那么多
到最后
还是被你说我让你失望
到底要我怎么做
你才会满意？

我说
你每次说话都是那么激动
总是忽略了我的感受
你不知道在你脾气爆发的时候
难道我心情就很好受吗？
你说了那么多话
一直徘徊在我脑海里
换来一句
我不会做你女儿

我这次没有赌气
我不吃饭 是真的没有胃口
吵到这样了
你觉得我还真的有胃口吃吗？
我说什么都没用

你有你的难处
我有我的苦衷
既然说了都不能够理解
那么就由得我吧
你烦恼 你自己静一静吧

我把自己关在房间里
你让我要怎样就怎样吧
不要理会我
让我自己不断地重复责怪我自己
什么都是我不好
ok吗？

姐姐说
我为什么每次要为了家里任何人
搞得封闭自己起来哭几天
让自己那么受委屈是为了什么？
叫我收拾衣服回新加坡
让自己冷静一些
我说
我哪一次不是为了家人呢
我也很想留了字条就走
但是我知道爸爸会很难过
就算知道我回去新加坡
爸爸也是会每天担心我没办法入睡
所以我宁愿整天躲在房间里

你还是老样子
为何总是听信别人的话
不相信自己的女儿
难道我的个性你都不了解我吗？

算了
你要怎么说就说吧
我有哪一次不是静静让你说完
再回房间哭
已经第几次了？

心里内疚

责怪自己

我没想过
我会那么失去理智的一天
我真的觉得很累

让我自己去冷静
我什么都不想理
你知道我的心有多痛吗？

昨晚哭了八个小时
凌晨五点都没办法入睡
你知道我的心情是怎么样的吗？
我很想驾车出去吹海风
却怕你担心我半夜出去而不敢出门

手上的痛
怎么疼
都比不上我心里的难受

我说

能不能让给我自己来决定
能不能让我冷静冷静

熬得过
我想会是新的开始

熬不过
我想我真的觉得累了

你让我觉得心很累很累

不管做任何事情
我总是把你们放在心目中第一
然而你们还是让我
心一次比一次还要累

有时候
我真的很想学姐姐
什么事情都不理也不把你们看得那么重
凡事都先为自己着想

然而我却
凡事先顾虑你们的心情 感受
自己是否真的快乐都无所谓
只要你们开心就好
反而是我一次又一次被你们弄得心累

这是好事吗？

这
难道就是你想要我送你的父亲节礼物？

那么简单的
[爸爸，父亲节快乐！希望你身体健康，天天开心。]
我却没有办法说出口

接下来的日子
我或许还是选择当作没事发生过
但希望你别再针对妈妈或姐姐

我不想同样的事情
再发生多一次
我真的无能为力了

我爱你

但

我也很恨我自己

♠ Part 4 Birthd@y。In SG

Birthday on the day,

I entered SG.

Not trying to escape wat,just a quiet ride.

No lively celebration,deliberately not busy,simple enough.

Into the 20 year old today, I no longer like before,

desire to always want to promise a smooth feeling.

Tis year,I desire to give up the feelings,

wholeheartedly hope their careers,now I just want to do myself.

Can u see ?

I stay in the life here,had a very relaxed, comfortable.
I like the feeling of nature,
I can walk out to the streets every day,to the window overlooking the sky.

Tis will be my longing for life.

Tis is my first cut a cake in Singapore.

It is my birthday tis year,the third cake cutting.

I'm crazy in love with cake,

whatever the time,I will think of the joy of cake.

Perhaps some of the recent problems and pressures,

I want to eat dessert.

SUMMIT shoe,unlimited gifts,

it sounds especially people happy.

Tis is mummy sent me a birthday present,

but it is disappointing!!!

becoz tis month have not published a lot of new goods,

so I didn't get like high heels.

The results of the three pairs of flat shoes and a white purse to buy.

OMG！！！

Really is not in the mood...

The bracelet is 便便 gave me.

Thx for u.
I really wear it in my hands.
Bracelet with my Bonia watch together ：P

Afterward,PLS CALL ME 慧琳.

I changed my name ady.

Long story,one day my mother took me to worship.

All in all,the name is a batch with the fortune-telling.

becoz my real name '宋' for me is not good,

so we changed the name.

My friends,

later don't call me '宋琳' again. THX!!

Tis is my last birthday gift.

Durian cake.

over many durian food,good to eat.

After this birthday,

I want to lose weight.

♠ Part 3 Birthd@y。Old Town的惊喜

生日快乐

我对自己说

♥

在这里许下了今年的愿望

1 ★希望自己可以在最短的时间内,存到一笔钱.

2 ★也是希望在最短时间内减肥成功,找回以前的自己.

3 ★家人能够身体健康 平平安安

4 ★希望身边所有的人都能幸福快乐

话说回来
非常感谢
放了工就赶去找蛋糕的阿翰
当时已经凌晨一点多左右
最后跑去Sutera mall附近的Cafe找到
变了一粒类似蛋糕的煎饼出来

知道你很赶
不过还是很谢谢你

最让我忘不了的事
你们从停车场附近慢慢走向Old town
还捧着一粒蛋糕
真的让我很傻眼
又很惊喜

当然
还有你那不在乎周围人的眼光
大大声帮我唱生日歌

感谢你。

^____________^

我收到的第一份礼物
竟然是便便送我的

这个瓜
我跟她应该认识没有一年
她比我小几岁
不但跟我没有代沟
而且在一起的时候都特别lag机

她很会弄我笑
不然就是找事情来给我笑

看她平时笨笨傻傻的样子
她却是一个很steady的朋友
而且也很贴心

在我最需要巧克力的时候
她竟然买了巧克力拿下来北干我家给我

很感谢。

爱你 ♥

这个家伙
不知道曾几何时酱了解我
竟然学会亲手做东西来感动我

我说丫
你分明就是要让我在你面前流泪
本来是不会哭的哝
因为看到你生日卡写的内容
让我觉得很欣慰

不管受了多少的挫折和伤害
我还是原来的那个我
还是跌了倒 继续自己爬起来

我会好好保留你的卡片
这是我最好的礼物

辛苦你了

爱你

最后 最后 最后

当然是来个全体合照啦 :P
还有个男人入不了镜头
因为他帮我们拍照

嘻嘻
谢谢你们这几只宝贝跟姐妹

没想到今年的生日
我竟然会是这样的渡过了

生日越来越没有庆祝的气氛

但你们也给了

我生日的快乐。

^^

♠ 12.6.2011

吃饱太得空
无聊没事做

在家乱绑头发

给mummy骂我三八婆

>___________<'''

意大利面
平时从来都不喜欢吃意大利面的我
今天很反常 :D


他们家的Menu是可爱的咯

^______________^

看看他们家的甜品
是多到不懂要吃什么的咯
不过看了都很赞

值得去Try看看。

最后还是点了Durian Pancake来吃。
还有一个马蹄不懂什么了。

哇哈哈 :P

Enjoy my last day in JB.

♥ 宵夜

我的宵夜，如此的丰富。

只有在JB才可以纵容自己去Enjoy食物，

我要吃什么就吃什么，

不必为了省钱，

挨饿。

我说 ：

吃蛋糕总是会让我的心情变美。

难怪我会如此的喜欢它。

尤其是水果蛋糕。

我很HAPPY

^_______^

虽然我现在很怕自己再变胖，

但这样不受约束的生活，

久久一次

应该还可以接受。

♠ Thanks my family for my attention

Recently,I often felt the feeling of being taken seriously,long time not so strong feelings,I really thank my family.Especially my daddy,my mum and my dear sister :P

It is you,let me get back myself,I should have been happier living back grounds,you made me open it all the past,I was finally able to start again :D


u are the best!!

Dad always duplicity,I'm obviously very willing to go out to a person lives,but don't say.He made ​​me feel very sweet little trick,always find an excuse to go to Singapore Sentosa Casino,intended only to give me a ride.When I got home,actually saw a post on the desk of money,is a father to me.He worried about my every day to save money,the cook at home eat maggie noodles,told me not to save money rather than go out to eat :X

Mom asked me almost every day's work,she was afraid I would starve,almost every day I go home at night she cooks for me to eat and she always thought I was on vacation,she also cooked desserts,I brought work to eat.

I was working or enjoying life? (=.=:)##

My sister for me to make more contribution,
same with me to get up every day,also take the MRT to go out with me,really hard with her.She also mentioned the size of the package every day things,I go hungry every day,she will take me to eat something tasty.Sometimes,I slept not the relationship between,I put sheets will have to see dirty looks to her.

Really hard for you.Thank you for never angry me (^_^)*

Whim of the day,I'm very hard to organize my room again,very clean and comfortable.Reading is also more pleasing to the eye,get rid of a lot of dust.Living environment is also more clear.

I lost a lot of things,for example:reference books,school notebooks,some meaningless things.Of coz,the biggest headache is the ceiling of the dust.I use the little staircase to clean up ,flow really confused.

These are my pick of the process,found in jewelry.Surprise!!! I grow up!!!now see how these necklaces were all very young children?I admit I'm old,these things are no longer wearing me ：)

This is the sisters sent me a birthday gift，I also keep a good,cherish this gift.Now we a lot less links,gradually the light a lot of friendship,but our memories still remain in the mind :D


Can u see?

A great difference , you see?

my room air corn,the accumulation of so much dust,usually I didn't notice the original so dirty,I'm start cleaning in today,know very nausea. T^T

2 more days,my birthday is coming.Time is really too soon,I'm officially 20 years old.Nothing special celebration or surprise,I just want to get better,there is enough money to reach the goal ^…………^

♠ Stay in Singapore

Singapore is about to enter the first day,I actually slept late,direct is to be scared together,but for tat person to call me,I think I should sleep in the afternoon ady liao lo.

In the past few days here,the beginning is not used to the environment,but gradually I found here I had a very full every day.Especially in the evening time,I'll go down to see people learn to dance on the basketball court.there are jogging to the park,even more crazy is that I live in the 20th floor,everyday I take the stairs to go out.As from the 1st floor came up,I don't hv to come to the 20th floor level,just walk up to the 10th floor,I'll just take the elevator out.

There is also a terrorist incident,my next door building,before I came SG,there is a 18 year old girl jumped from the 17th floor,killed on the spot.terrible is not?every day I go out there after the scene.fear.


I'm very patterns of life here,time to bed at 10 pm every day.

I believe that is a good start :)

That day,I do a physical examination of the test.otherwise,can't doing permit.the first is the urine,second is to test blood pressure,the third is the blood.OMG!!! 3 pumping blood,numbness in my hands directly,my nephew was still afraid to speak =.=''

I feel the most angry is tat the test eyes,becoz my eyes can't see her asking me to read out the letters,the results don't pass.becoz I didn't wear glasses relationship.Time is not enough,come again on wednesday to testing,the results I was in Singapore bought a pair of glasses.Walao!! $ 148 ok.curse the person who stole my glasses,the best will fall walk.Hum.......> <

The clerk told me,don't take good care of my eyes,sooner or later something happens,my degree has soared from 125 degrees to 375 degrees.seriously outrageous.harm to the mother scolded me....HUH!!!

♠ Last night 好好照顾自己。

我在等时间的到来
我知道今晚的我会难以入睡

很多感触是怎么写 怎么说 也描述不完

虽然我不知道
以后会有什么改变
但我只想说
你们要好好照顾自己

无论是
我的姐妹 宝贝 朋友都好
我都希望你们过得快乐

虽然我神经大条
不过我还是会keep住我的理智
好好的让自己过得更好的

其实
昨晚是很想抱着你们大哭的哝
尤其是芝柔
说不出什么原因
可能是我太久没看过你笑了
希望你是真的快乐

毕竟每天相处的时间多了
渐渐地
很不习惯没有在你身边的日子
知道你很软弱
你身边也有个保护你的人
我也比较放心

距离不会把我们的友情拉远
我相信这句话
你呢？

一起做工
一起上课
一起下课
一起走街
一起被骂

那些属于我们俩的回忆
都keep在我心里
虽然我对着你说不出口
那么肉麻的话
很恶心是吗

可是现在我心里所想的
就是这样

有什么不开心还是什么事
不要放在心里
我电话24小时为你打开
不要因为怕我做工累了就不敢找我吼
如果你还当我是好朋友的话 ^_^

还有便便 蓝蓝

怎么可能会少了你们呢
我没有偏心厚
谁叫你们是陪我玩最后一天的人
我的blog一定会牵扯到你们滴

哈哈哈哈

黄晓慧

我知道你现在很幸福了拉
但是改一改你的习惯一下
虽然我懂爱情的力量很伟大
不过自己身体也要多注意一点
知道没？

不懂是不是你神经大条传染给我
跟你在一起虽然很吵闹
但是
就是会被你的吵闹而忘了烦恼
真不知道是好事还是坏事



还有便便

这个每天说幽默又lag机的家伙
明明年龄就跟我们有差
但是说起话来并不觉得有代沟
不知道从何时起
我跟你从相识到现在
就是因为缘分吧

一个呆不住家里的家伙
你是时候学会在家陪家人了拉
做个孝顺的孩子才对







一个人驾车的路
总是那么长 那么的遥远

安静的周围
总会让我想起些不该再想起的回忆

想了就是想了
我并不会刻意的去逃避

我选择离开并不代表我躲避
我选择坚强并不代表我同意

留下回忆在这里
我并不害怕有天回来会再想起
我不堕落是因为我觉得自己没有任何不好

我想开始新的生活
也是为了让自己过得更好一点
我会证明我的选择没有错1

因为你不配 并不是我不好


还有一个一直陪伴我的人
以后我不懂怎样再继续保持联系
但是希望你过得好
也要好好照顾自己

我们不是恋人
但是对你有一定的信任
你对我也是吗？
如果是的话
就算以后没有联络了
我相信这个友谊还是不会败给距离的

加油！

最后一个说我连临走前也不说的人
我很犹豫到底要不要跟你说
或许我会在我进了SG的关口会告诉你
我在乎过 我记得那一些回忆
所以我才想把你的好留在心里
记得你要好好过

好拉
我要说的也差不多了
不说了

有机会我会再来renew这里的。

大家都要过得好好的哦。^^

♠ Part 2 Birthd@y 提前庆祝with宝贝们

昨晚太迟回家的关系
今天好像睡死掉酱
我的姐妹12点就起身等我msg了
哈哈哈
拍谢捏~~~~~

冲凉出来梳洗好了
开始来拍照
真的是不tahan我们两个是吗
很久没酱爱拍了

我很有勇气
摆脱了化妆品
我出门竟然没有化妆
话说回来
我要经得起这个过程才行
做到了
感恩

傍晚的时间
我们才从北干往Sutera mall出发

在这期间
很好笑是吗？
兜风去大学城,然后去bukit indah,再去Sutera mall
为的就是不懂要去哪里吃晚餐
我们兜到九点才到咯
最后决定还是去Moonlight吃蛋糕

不懂是不是饿过头的关系
我们竟然忘了把食物拍起来
吃完了才想到
OMG

因为我宝贝的公公生日
所以我们要在十点半赶回去北干
结果就连便便一起绑架下来了
娃哈哈
全部被我关在我家等候

差不多凌晨一点左右
我的宝贝好了我们才去载她
然后去看半夜场





嘿嘿
半路来麦当当打包
我本来忍住诱惑不要吃了
结果有只猪很恶劣
害我还是点了一个儿童套餐来吃

还有送这个Panda
它几肥一下有没有？

像我 >___________<

好不容易来到了电影院
才发现！
竟然没有戏好看了是吗？
X-men的时间过了
剩下的都是马来戏

我们在某个角落呆了半个钟
全部在犹豫要不要看
最后决定是看马来戏
很kit是吗

选了这一部鬼戏
还是半夜来看鬼戏
我们几个女的未免也太大胆了是吗？
看封面觉得很恐怖下
但是进去看了觉得还好
只是有些画面有点恶心

故事的内容
是说不要不相信有鬼的存在
半夜也不要在路边乱开鬼的玩笑
不错看

我们买的电影票

2：20分才开场

结果我们几只就坐在外面等时间
全部马来人的存在
只有我们几个华人罢了咯
就连那个售货员都觉得奇怪
我们华人怎么去看马来戏

蓝蓝的杰作
吃饱没事干
到处都在拍

不要看最后一个图片
以为是什么东西来的
其实是便便的背后拉
她趴在桌子睡觉

哈哈哈哈

今天很开心
因为我一直都听到欢笑声
我的心情也渐渐地变好

我很爱哭
虽然我在车上真的没流泪
但是在电影院的时候
确实是有流了几滴

>___<

这两天
有你们的陪伴真好

是我最好的生日礼物

谢谢你们

♠ Part 1 Birthd@y

I was very touched,becoz daddy had remembered my birthday.This is first time,he mentioned my birthday.I remember last year's birthday,is a quiet ride,daddy doesn't remember my birthday.I'm so sad.but this year he surprised me,becoz he did to help me celebrate.He has also been reminding me to come back early tomorrow after work.

Before dawn,I heard a lot of noise coming from the kitchen,noe tat daddy,in the preparation of food for the night.He helped me at home BBQ.

At that time,my heart feel happy,I can't say what my heart is touched,but my mind was filled with the feeling of not willing,I stay at home time is not much.I know my father is very willing,come back to eat dinner at least a week the 4 days,but this to work in Singapore,I believe it may never come back a week,becoz I want to fight the salary figure.

I'll miss u so much,u noe?

As for the afternoon program,I with my dear sis go to U mall see movie.The Kungfu Panda.In fact, my main purpose is to eat popcorn.Recently,many movies are feeling very good,I have been looking for free time go to the movies,but the film's content,in fact, most of them are funny,probably becoz I was tired of the relationship between,so I hv want to sleep de feel. ZZZzZz

As for the night,I hv spent with my family at home,and a few friends,I'm most grateful is that,便便 drive down my house looking for me,her super intentioned.Thx u

After the end of the BBQ,she also set us to JB ride.We go to Tmn Century eat 田鸡粥,with my brother.Hey hey~see the picture ya.He is very noisy,We're sick of him,蓝蓝 has been taking picture with him,left his most ugly side :P

We came home around 4 o'clock,very tired.

Thx for them.

Muacks.

♠ First day of June

Into the first day of June, be happy！: )
this is my lucky month,
I hope everyday is happy.

no make up!!!!

see my "黑眼圈"

about to begin new work life,
I should strive for opportunities to make money.
suffer a little bit,
that is not what,
the most important thing is meaningful.

I'll stay some days in Singapore,
since I don't have time to update blog,
but there is a chance,
I'll move the entire frame laptop to Singapore,
becoz I can't lose it :P

Of course,
I'm most worried about is the father,
thought he would scold me for going to work in Singapore,
didn't think he has said nothing,
just tell me

"你长大了,对错自己要会分辨,路是你的,你选择怎样走就怎样走"
"我说不可以你也酱,我说可以你也酱"
"你们大了,我也不多说了,说多只有惹你们讨厌"

其实你每一次不答应的事 我都不会去做
我会告诉你 那是因为我尊重你
所以你别说到我好像责怪你什么
知道你会担心我在外的日子
不过你要相信我 你女儿
我不是没有为自己打算的人
呆在家翘脚 以向来都不是我喜欢的作风
我会独立 不用靠任何人 我都可以过 ^^

this month is my birthday,
I always look forward to before the arrival of birth,
but gradually grow up,
slowly on these days there is no expectation,just ordinary.
I just want to eat a piece of cake.

of course,
my wish is that when I young,make more money.
desire most is to shoot a family photo.
this's just my pure fantasy :(

on this day,
I and sister with mummy go to eat hot pot.
at Tmn U de '大胃王'
didn't intend to eat a big meal for a long time,
but after more thought no chance,
so go now while there is time,
try to complete I want to do it.

back and forth the past few days in Singapore,
I feel very physical exertion,
so,
I don't hv time to rest,becoz even go to class.
I'm simply not enough sleep,
very hot temper.

I can't imagine my future work,
is not it will fatigue?

GD night.everyone. <3